Anti-Social

Some days, you just really don't want to be "bothered" by others.  Not that people are a bother, but you just don't want to put that smile on, like there isn't anything going on but in reality, everything is going on and you just don't want to have to show face. 

Sunday, the entire day, I was like that.  It was my fault.  And I will tell you why.

We all have stories that define our lives.  They are so instrumental in shaping the way we do things and the way we think about things. 

One of those stories, was for me a life event.  Audrey Jade Hope.  My niece.  You can read her story here.

What does that have to do with my bad day, you may ask.  Well, four years ago on May 3rd, I was living this story.  And yes, it is still hard to think about and remember every detail of my life at this time so many years ago. 

But it wasn't me that brought these thoughts into my head.  It was a TV show.  I watched as a father was in a car accident because he had a brain aneurism and eventually went brain dead and then became an organ donor...

Yes, I cried through the TV program and then I stayed up way to late that night trying to see what happens next...   Bad choice on my part.  Netflix can suck you in and keep you there for a while.

So, that just reminded me about what had happened a few years ago. 

That leads me to my next thing.

Just because someone is having a bad day and they are anti social that day, doesn't mean that they are mad at you or upset at you or they don't want to be around you. 

QTIP: Quit Taking It Personal.  (BTW: I am talking to myself.  I have a bad habit of thinking the world revolves around me.  I also can read people well and automatically assume that I caused whatever issue they have. Most of the time, that is not true. QTIP!)

Sometimes, you just need time inside your head to process.  I needed to process feelings, that really had no business coming out of my mouth. 

It was very fitting that Pastor preached a message on "Wanna Get Away," and on that day, Yes, Yes I did.